Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Its Time

...to face my demons. I'm tired of this old habit that has brought me down numerous times in my life. it has brought nothing but headaches, hardships, arguments, fights and tension between me, my parents and everyone i love. What is this foul demon? To many this may be a close friend, a false ally, an encouragement to lead one's self to the road of failure, the epitome of laziness in its entirety - procrastination.

I feel ashamed sometimes to be the progeny of two individuals that have worked hard in their life to make a bright future for me. To do everything in their power (maybe not everything) to make me the "whiz kid", the "genius", "modern Einstein" of this generation. However I seem to contradict the wishes, resulting to disappointment, embarrassment, or pity. "Oh pity. How I pity myself." This ignorance has clamped on to the very core of my educational potential for too long... I can no longer tolerate this bullshit.

as I write this, the blasted word creeps again and again in the coat of my cerebrum...

pro·cras·ti·nate (pr-krst-nt, pr-)
v. pro·cras·ti·nat·ed, pro·cras·ti·nat·ing, pro·cras·ti·nates
v.intr.
To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.
v.tr.
To postpone or delay needlessly.


Oh how I loathe this fucking word. Nonetheless, its about time I looked it in the eye, and mutilated it with the anger and frustration that has grown almost endlessly on the edge of my burning fist.

This will be one last time that I post this word or ever speak of it again. It will forever be erased from my vocabulary, I swear on my grandparents' graves.


im sorry im not perfect like the others...
but i swear, my name will be up in the stars and i will fly higher than a bird could ever do.
God is my witness - I WONT GIVE UP.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

It makes me..

sad seeing you like this. and maybe because i'm the one to blame for how you're changing... i don't know. regret? fml if it is, again.

all i can do at this moment is stand by you and support... but if i happen to make things worse, i might as well step back.

like you said "you can't rely one anyone"...


i guess i should start changing my views then.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

I feel it taking over..

i better find your lovin'. i better find your heart. i bet if i give all my love, then nothing's gonna tear us apart.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Give me more lovin' from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends-
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad, Best that I've had,
I'm so glad I found you, I love bein' around you.  
You make it easy, it's easy as 1,2- 1,2,3,4 
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you- (I love you) I love you
There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what I'll do-


"i love you."
Happy 4 Months Marjorie!
i know this is random.. but i heard this song and i thought about you and me. :)


... goodnight!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

You...

make me blush
make me laugh like i never did before
make me wanna dance
make me cry tears of joy
make me feel as if my pathetic accents are worth listening to
make me speed less when i drive
make me want to play games with you
make me feel like superman, spiderman..... like a hero
make me feel important
make me better
make me full to a point i look like a pregnant man
make me feel comfortable and satisfied regardless of me looking like a pregnant man
make me think about you everyday
make me dream about you almost everyday
make me wanna go to practice just to see you
make me do cheesy things i've never ever thought of doing
make me so happy
make me realize that we don't need drugs to have fun
make me feel like a kid sometimes
make me wanna watch chick flicks to make me feel as if i'm watching with you
make me wanna stay up all night and talk to you
make me food, and i love it
make me wanna wear your kilt out of curiosity (inside joke ;) )
make me go gaga
make me wanna sing
make me wanna rock on my guitar or yours.... either way
make me realize the importance of family, friends and education
make me want to yell your name on the highest mountain
make me wanna say....


i love you.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I love the feeling of..

looking at my phone, wondering when you're gonna text me.
and just as i'm about the reach for my phone to start the conversation,
a text arrives a second earlier than my reaction..

and its you. :)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

I feel like such a dumb ass...

...i'm sorry.
i promise to give my all as well, and to have faith in you.
110%.
help me stop over thinking. that shit's bad mojo.





i love you.
x infinity plus one


...forever